人生の目覚まし時計。

 

 

2010年8月9日(月)11時19分。

昭和3年生まれ、ひとつの、ひとりの人生が幕を閉じました。

 

 

 

こんな人でした。

 

・決して裕福ではない家庭に生まれ、自分の定められた人生に
真摯に向き合い生きてきた人。

 

・小学校を卒業後、大阪に丁稚奉公に出て印刷関連の仕事につき、
65歳まで神戸で印刷工として仕事を続け
定年後は大好きな写真と読書に明け暮れた人。

 

・昭和ひとけた生まれ、昔ながらの頑固者

 

・小学校の頃から耳が遠く、聞こえないのにかたくなに、
補聴器や障害者手帳をとることを拒んできた人

 

・貧乏なのに、自分達の生活を削ってでも子供ふたりを私立の大学にまで通わせた人

 

・飾った世界に流されない、謙虚に自分の思う人生を生き続けた人

 

・言いたいことの半分も言葉で表せない人

 

・いつも密かに子供の体の心配ばかりしてる人

 

 

 

 

 

 

もらったもの

 

・命

 

・おもいやり、人を思う気持ち

 

・誠実に生きること

 

・約1万枚の写真(その時々のコメントが添えてある思いのこもったもの)

 

・真摯に、ちょっと頑固に生きること

 

・私の大学入学時のよろこびの手紙

 

・大学4年の時に3ヶ月間、世界中を放浪していた時に大きな心配をかけたこと
(当時の カレンダーに心配の言葉がつづられてました。)

 

・多くは話さないけど、態度で心配する背中

 

・はにかむこと。恥ずかしがる気持ち

 

・もっともっと多くのもの

 

 

etc 書き尽くせません。。。

 

 

 

 

あげられたもの

 

・息を引き取る1ヶ月前に、生まれてからの感謝の気持ちを便箋三枚に書き綴り、
渡し、そして読んでもらったこと。

 

 

 

→これだけ。

 

 

それは、私の父です。残念ながら死に目には会えませんでした。。。

 

 

親の心、子知らず。

 

子供をもって、自分も少しは親の気持が分かるようになったと思っていたけど、
実際には全然だめですね。
大学から家を出たので約20年以上別居状態でしたが、どんな気持ちで、
子供の事を考えていたか、父のアルバム日記からわかります。

 

 

恥ずかしながら、亡くなって初めて気付くことが多すぎて。。。

 

 

 

父に心から感謝しています。

 

思うに私は幼い頃から、「死」というものを忌み嫌うところがありました。
両親が年をとってからできた子供であるせいか、小学校の同級生の誰よりも
私の両親がともに一番の年配でした。
それだけに、親が死ぬということにビクビクしていたのかもしれません。

 

霊柩車が通ればいつもこっそり両手の親指を隠す。。。
迷信ですが、そんな子供でした。
最近でもアカデミー賞映画の「おくりびと」を見ることができませんでした。

 

 

人は一人で生まれ、そして一人で死ぬ。
いつの日か人はその命を終える時がきます。

 

 

生まれるときは多くの人に嬉し涙で迎えられ、
死にゆくときは多くの人に寂し涙で送られる。
そんな人生を生きたいとおもいます。

 

 

フランクリンコーヴィーの有名な書、7つの習慣に
「人生の目覚まし時計」が出てきます。
人は自分の人生の中で死や、大きな挫折を実感したとき人生の目覚まし時計が鳴ると。

 

人はいつも「死」を遠きにあるものと見ています。足下にあるものとは見ていない。
生死の期限の不確実性が人を安堵させるところがあるのかもしれません。

 

 

楽天の三木谷さんは 阪神大震災での身内の死によって
人生の目覚まし時計が鳴りました。

 

ソフトバンクの孫さんは、自らの慢性肝炎での闘病生活によって
人生の目覚まし時計が鳴りました。

 

アップルのスティーブ・ジョブスは 自らの膵臓ガンでの闘病生活によって
人生の目覚まし時計が鳴りました。

 

ワタミの渡辺さんは、幼い頃の母親の死によって
人生の目覚まし時計が鳴りました。

 

 

 

思うに、人生の目覚まし時計が鳴った人の生き方は太く、
感銘を覚える生き方が多いような気がします。

 

 

 

8月9日以来、私の人生の目覚まし時計が鳴り続けています。

 

 

 

 

そして、私はこの目覚まし時計の止め方を知りません。。。。

 

AkiraTsuchiya
 

English ↓

The Alarm Clock of Life

Thursday, August 26, 2010.

On Monday, August 9, 2010, at 11:19 a.m., the life of one person, born in 1928, came to an end.

Born in 1928, one, single life has come to an end.

He was a man like this.

He was born into a family that was not wealthy, but he lived his life with sincerity and devotion to his destiny.

After graduating from elementary school, he went to Osaka to work as an apprentice in the printing industry, and continued working as a printer in Kobe until the age of 65.

He was born in the Showa Era (1926-1989) and is a stubborn old-fashioned person.

A person who has been deaf since elementary school and stubbornly refuses to get hearing aids or disability certificates even though he cannot hear.

Those who, in spite of their poverty, sent their children to private universities even at the cost of their own lives.

A person who has humbly continued to live his life the way he wants to live it, without being carried away by the world of decorum.

A person who can't express half of what he wants to say in words.

A person who always worries about his/her children's health in secret.

What I received

Life

Compassion and consideration for others

To live with sincerity

About 10,000 photos (with comments from time to time)

To live sincerely and a little stubbornly.

My letter of joy when I entered university.

The things that worried me a lot when I was wandering around the world for 3 months in my senior year of college (I had a calendar of those days with words of concern).

A backside that never said much but worried with an attitude.

The backs of people who never talk much, but worry with their attitude. Shyness.

More and more things.

I can't write it all down........

I can't write it all down.

One month before he breathed his last, I wrote down my gratitude for his life on three sheets of letter paper, handed them to him, and asked him to read them.

→That's all.

That is my father. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see him die.

A parent's heart is a child's heart.

I thought I could understand the feelings of parents a little more now that I have children, but in reality, I'm not at all. I left home after college, so we were separated for more than 20 years, but I know from my father's album diary how he felt and how he thought about his children.

I am ashamed to say that there are so many things that I didn't realize until after he passed away.

I am truly grateful to my father.

I think that since I was a child, I had an aversion to the idea of death. Perhaps because I was born after my parents were old, my parents were the oldest of all my classmates in elementary school. Perhaps that is why I was so scared that my parents were going to die.

Whenever a hearse drove by, I always secretly hid both thumbs. It is a superstition, but I was such a child. Even recently, I could not watch the Academy Award-winning movie "Departures.

One is born alone, and one dies alone. Someday we will end our lives.

When you are born, you are welcomed with tears of joy by many people, and when you die, you are sent off with tears of loneliness by many people. That is the kind of life I want to live.

In Franklin Corvey's famous book, "Seven Habits," there is a phrase, "The Alarm Clock of Life. It is said that when a person experiences death or a major setback in his or her life, the alarm clock of his or her life goes off.

People always see "death" as something far away. They do not see it as something that lies beneath their feet. Perhaps it is the uncertainty of the deadline of life and death that gives people relief.

Rakuten's Mr. Mikitani's life alarm clock went off with the death of his relatives in the Great Hanshin Earthquake.

Mr. Son of Softbank's life alarm clock was set off by his own battle with chronic hepatitis.

Steve Jobs of Apple Inc. set off the alarm clock of his life with his own battle with pancreatic cancer.

Watami's Mr. Watanabe's life alarm clock went off with the death of his mother when he was a child.

I think that the way of life of people whose life alarm clocks have gone off is often bold and inspiring.

Since August 9, the alarm clock of my life has been ringing.

And I don't know how to stop this alarm clock. 。。。。

AkiraTsuchiya